Music Mondays- Come Alive (Dry Bones) by Lauren Daigle

Living with chronic illness means mornings waking up with pain and stiffness. On such mornings, I give the day to Jesus and ask him to help me be a blessing. I love this song Come Alive-Dry Bones by Lauren Daigle. Some mornings I listen to it as I ask Jesus to help me be a blessing.

Dry bones is a reference to Ezekiel 37 in the bible where God shows Ezekiel a valley of dry bones and that God will breathe new life into them.

Jesus can breathe new life into us, into our dried up lives. He can restore broken relationships. He can give strength to the weak. He can lift up those who are down in spirit.

May this song be a blessing to you as you start your week.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

Wellness Wednesday-Thoughts on Doctor Last Week

Last Wednesday I had a follow up appointment with my Rheumatologist. It went well and I was pleased with the appointment.

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Finding a good Rheumatologist who takes time to listen is so important for getting a diagnosis especially with something like Psoriatic Arthritis that does not show up on blood tests. I am grateful that after two previous Rheumatology clinics, I went to the one that is my current clinic.

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Getting a diagnosis for any chronic illness is like going through a maze. It can take years. For me it took five years after first seeking help. As I think back, I realize I had symptoms long before I sought help. For example, I thought I had dandruff when I actually had psoriasis on my scalp. Since starting treatment, it has cleared up.

It is so important to be our own advocates. We can do so by keeping a journal of symptoms, asking questions, and seeking a second opinion if needed. I think of the woman with the issue of blood in Luke chapter 8. She pressed in through the crowd to touch Jesus. Those of us with chronic illness need that kind of persistence.

A few more thoughts:

My blood tests came back with good results. I was worried because I did not study for them.

I realized I was born to be an optimist. My blood type is B Positive.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

Wellness Wednesday- Doctor Day

Today is my follow up appointment with the Rheumatologist at the University Medical Center Nebraska. In June he diagnosed me having Psoriatic Arthritis and prescribed a medication. I have made a pros and cons list of the medication with the pros far outweighing the cons. Progress has been made. I am thankful for the progress and for Jesus getting me through the first months of treatment.

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So off we go into the wild blue yonder to see a doctor who actually doesn’t stress me out. When I saw him in June, after spending an hour with him, my blood pressure came down- A LOT. lol

A friend is taking me there. It will be a good time of fellowship before the appointment. I never know what will be done at the appointments, so an ounce of prevention kind of thing. Also I don’t need the stress of freeway and interstate driving right before the appointment.

Also Hello September my favorite month. I love September because my morning class starts and autumn begins. I would say college football but my once great favorite college team has been terrible in recent years.

So Happy Wednesday-Hump Day.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

Wellness Wednesday- What I Won’t Miss

Yesterday I shared Jesus Will Come Back For Us. As someone who lives with chronic illness it caused me to think about what I won’t miss after Jesus comes back for those who believe in him.

I won’t miss morning stiffness.

I won’t miss chronic pain.

I won’t miss constant fatigue.

I won’t miss doctors.

I won’t miss flare ups.

The list could go on of things that I won’t miss. But I also realize what keeps me going through it all is something that I will miss. It is what gets me up and keeps me going. It is what keeps my attitude from going down. It is my motivation for my life.

What will I miss?

I will miss sharing the love of Jesus with people who do not know him. In heaven everyone knows Jesus. Everyone has experienced and continues to experience the love of Jesus in heaven.

There is one more thing I would miss. I would miss teaching English Second Language. I don’t think there will be a need for that in heaven.

What I won’t miss causes me to wish for the return of Jesus today. What I will miss causes me to hope for more years in this life.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

A Hangover? Me?

Yes each Friday I deal with a hangover. Are you surprised? I am a Christian blogger and writing about a hangover.. Okay I admit it. I am having a little fun with the post.

It is what those of us who take Methotrexate call the Methotrexate hangover. I take it on Thursdays, so each Friday even though I have thoughts of doing something, those thoughts quickly evaporate as I realize all I really want and perhaps can do is sleep and relax.

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I gladly put up with it because the medication has already improved some aspects of life for me.

And then there are those strange cravings. Chocolate ice cream with bananas, chocolate ice cream with Greek yogurt with any fruit, corn chips, but yesterday I did manage to include one healthy meal of chicken and veggies. 🙂

Saturday comes and I am ready for the coffee shop. Sunday comes and now I can stand during worship without back spasms. Morning stiffness is lessened, but I still require my morning coffee. 🙂

Speaking of Saturdays, due to school starting Fridays will become the day I take my meds, so Saturdays will be my new Methotrexate hangover day.

September 1st I will go see my Rheumatologist for a follow up. Hopefully no added meds. I do have some promising news to share with him.

Just a glimpse into my spoonie life-someone living with chronic illness.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

Wellness Wednesday-What Ifs?

None of us really goes through this life unscathed, but for some there can be hurtful memories from the past whether from family issues, abuse, trauma, job loss, health issues etc.

It is so easy to fall into the pitfall of the What If thinking. I have to admit at times in my life What Ifs have dragged me down.

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What If my father had not lost his business and found our he was diabetic when I was 12. What If he had not retreated in his vodka.

What If I had not experienced a serious health crisis and had to leave the school where I was studying for the ministry.

I know the What Ifs all to well.

But two scripture verses raise me up.

Romans 8:28- And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

God is always at work in my life to bring everything together for my good.

Ephesians 2:10- For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

God created me with abilities and talents to match what he is calling me to.

So how do I turn the What Ifs around when they try to raise their ugly heads?

What I do is change the What Ifs. Examples:

What If I had not had my health crisis 1993 to 1995. I would not have been led to what I do now.

What If I had not been through what I have been through. I would not have met the people Jesus has blessed me with meeting, sharing his love with, and helping.

What If my family life had not been so messed up. I would not have the empathy for others that I have now.

By changing my What Ifs, it keeps my focus on Jesus and his calling on my life. It helps to keep things like despair, self pity, etc out of my life.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

Wellness Wednesday- Progress Being Made

Currently I am halfway through my first prescription for the medication I take for Psoriatic Arthritis. The common wisdom is that it can take up the three months to see results. I am six weeks into taking it and have seen improvement already. I realize each person’s experience differs and at times a lot.

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When I first started it, I could barely walk across a room without having back spasms. Now I am walking four to six blocks a day which would be longer but that one knee ugh.

What really caught my attention was standing during worship as we sing at church. I had not done that for a long itme.

I still have cravings the day I take it and the day after. Chocolate ice cream with bananas is one. For some reason Fritos Corn Chips is the other. That one is surprising because I hadn’t eaten those in years.

My hope is to make so much progress that I resume my international travels next summer. 🙂 But I am also realistic knowing flares can come unexpectedly.

It seems longer ago than only seven weeks ago that the Chief of the Rheumatology Department at the University Medical Center I went to in June told me, “You present us with an interesting situation.” Words no one wants to hear from a doctor. lol

Whether more progress occurs or not, the main thing to me is to do as Paul wrote in Philippians 3:

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

Wellness Wednesday- Almost Missed A Blessed Sunday

Missing out on moments in life is a part of living with chronic illness. Spoonies, people with chronic illness, always want to be invited, but also know a flare up could hit at any moment or simply just have zero energy to do anything.

My weekly routine now is take my once a week medication on Thursday, relax on Friday and do a half day on Saturday, By doing only a half day on Saturday, I am okay for Sunday morning and church. But last Saturday I had a funeral in the afternoon and it was important for me to be there. That meant a full day on Saturday.

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The result? I woke up Sunday with no energy and almost canceled my Sunday morning group and stayed home from church. But then I prayed and did my self talk of , “Man up and go”, and got ready. I was drained but went.

Am I ever glad I did.!!! An American friend from church joined and helped with my Sunday class for the first which was spontaneous. The students were delighted. During worship after class, a young Hispanic woman sat next to me. We talked after worship and realized we knew each other from when I visited a Hispanic church when she was a teen. We talked about ways she can help with ministry. Then as I was walking in the church, a woman and two teens were talking. I know the woman and her husband speak Spanish, so I greeted her in Spanish. The two teens said, “we need a Spanish group in church.” That is something I have wanted to do for a LONG time.

After church I came home and enjoyed a three hour power nap full of gratitude for how the Lord worked Sunday morning.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

Music Mondays- Same God by Hannah Kerr

God who created all we see is the same God who loves us and is always with us. There is never a moment God is not with us.

He is with us the middle of everything we go through, I have experience his presenced on days when chronic illness flares. I feel his presence by the songs in my spirit.

I have experienced that in down times through the little and big ways he lets me know he is with me.

Whatever you are going through, the same God who created everything you see, the stars at night, the trees, the birds,, is the same God who sees you, knows you. knows your struggles and loves you.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.

Wellness Wednesday- Peace of Mind

At the risk of making people I think I am older than I look, 🙂 , I was thinking about the different crises I may have lived through in the USA. My earliest memories as far as being aware of life around me were the Watergate Scandal and the Vietnam War. Then came gas lines and a terrible economy. That was all in the 1970s. Each decade of my life there has been some form of turmoil.

Since 1993, I have lived with chronic illness and have experienced what it is like to go through the maze of trying to get a diagnosis only to end up with being diagnosed with five issues, asthma, hypothyroid, Celiacs, Fibromyalgia and Psoriatic Arthritis.

Since I rededicated my life to Jesus in July 1989, there have been many valleys, struggles, hardships, while not only trying to live for Jesus but also seeking what he was calling me to in life.

Considering the constant pressure of life whether what is happening in society, happening with my health, and happening with struggles in my own life, one might conclude I do not have peace of mind or if I say I do, some might think I am in denial.

It all comes down to not what I am looking to for help but who. The who is Jesus. Jesus said in John 14:

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

The peace the world looks at is temporary, external, and focused on circumstances, The peace Jesus gives is internal, eternal, and based on knowing him.

I love the way Psalm 121 says it:

I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.

Through everything I have been through, Jesus has brought me through. He has given me peace in my spirit and has helped me step by step.

I love this song by Alisa Turner- I Will Lift My Eyes.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.