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The saying I came, I saw, I conquered, does not exactly apply to me when it comes to my annual check up with the doctor. Yesterday I went for my annual check up and it was more like I came, I was seen, It wasn’t too bad, so I survived.

It may sound funny to others that I have what doctors call white coat syndrome meaning I see a doctor of any kind and I have a lot of anxiety. After all, I have had wonderful times traveling to other countries and traveling alone is no problem for me. Walking the streets of a city in another country is my version of going to Disney World.

My appointment was for 2:15. I arrived ten minutes early and sat in the waiting room until they called my name at 2:45. Then I sat in the exam room until 3:30 when the doctor came in. But I had my iPad with me, so I read some bible verses, checked my facebook and instagram, and read some sports news on ESPN.

The good part is that she is a Christian, so as we discussed things she understood. One of the things was discussing depression and anxiety. There is a stigma in some churches about getting help with depression and anxiety. My doctor understands that. So I felt free to discuss the issues with her. When I told her I offered to resign my ministry because I realized I did indeed need to take the medication prescribed, she understood. Fortunately when I offered to resign this past summer the pastors said- “It’s medical no need to resign,”

Occasionally I share a post like this because while I am a man of faith, I also believe it is important to keep it real. Being a Christian does not mean one’s life is perfect. As we share our struggles, out faith can be more real to others.

Maybe when I go for a follow up next month, the anxiety won’t be as bad. 🙂

Now I am off to do much less stressful things like meet with people from other countries to teach them English.

Thank you for reading. God Bless.