I read a post by my little sister Dawn of drawingclosertochrist.com Her post is I Choose Jesus. It is an excellent post to read about the blessings of choosing Jesus. It also caused me to think about what it means on a daily basis for me as I live with chronic illness.
It has been many years since I first trusted in Jesus as my Savior. But in recent years the daily choice has become more vital to me. The daily choice I am talking about is choosing to make the day count for Jesus and others.
I wake up most mornings with pain. The degree of pain varies, but it is always there. I also wake up every morning with fatigue. That is the plight of people who live with chronic illness. Even if we sleep 8 hours, we wake up feeling fatigued. I have mornings I am tempted to stay in bed. I have mornings it is all I can do to get out of bed and sit down and drink a cup of coffee.
What gets me out of bed is not wanting to miss out on being a part of what Jesus has in store for me for that day. So I sit in my chair with a cup of coffee and listen to some worship music as I try to wake up. As I sit in my chair, I pray over my day, for my students, and for others I will see. I ask Jesus to give me strength and help me to show his love.
As I write this on Friday evening to schedule for Saturday morning, I have just come home from a day that my pain was EVERYWHERE. On days like these only my hair doesn’t hurt. It was a day that I had very little energy. Fortunately, it came on the one day I only teach in the mornings. But good things happened in my class. After class, I went to a coffee shop for the afternoon and just sat, drank coffee and then mineral water, and played a word game.
Staying home on a Friday evening used to bug me. Now I relish it so I can rest for Saturday. Saturdays mornings are ministry time as I meet with friends from other countries at my church. Scheduling my life to have a better chance at a productive weekend of ministry is another part of choosing Jesus for me as I live with chronic illness. So most Friday evenings I am at home relaxing because I want to be there for my friends Saturday and Sunday mornings.
I do not know how many more tomorrows I have in this life and I want them to count for Jesus. That is why I start my day off by choosing to live for him and asking for his help.
Thank you for reading. God Bless.