The old saying two steps forward, one step back is one that hasn’t applied to me the past several months. It has been more of a maybe 1 step forward, get knocked down, 2 steps back, get stuck there and wonder what will happen.
Anyone living with chronic illness will relate to that.
But yesterday something different happened. I sure hope it continues. Wednesday night was my first night with a new medication. I spent most of the day Thursday with no widespread pain. I only had pain in my injured right shoulder and my bad knee. A day of almost no pain. It was a gift. SERIOUSLY a gift!!! I have lived with chronic pain and fatigue for so long that I do not remember not having pain.
I relate so much with 2 Corinthians 4:
“But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.”
God has given me wonderful opportunities to share his love with the nations living in my city. It is a treasure I carry in my jar of clay. Chronic illness strikes me down, but has not destroyed me.
But there is something to look forward to beyond all of it. God has promised an eternal home with Jesus. It is 2 Corinthians 5 that gives me so much hope.
“For we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands.”
Here is hoping for more days like yesterday of minimal pain. But whatever each day brings in this life, my focus is not on this life. It is on my eternal destiny and my desire is to help as many people as I can to experience the great love of God in Jesus.