I started counseling in the beginning of the year with the thinking of it helping me stay on top of depression. Living with chronic illnesses that all can cause depression is why I have depression. After hearing my pastor encourage people about seeking counseling, I decided to do so. I had no idea that what was about to happen would occur.
The first three sessions were mostly my therapist asking me questions and getting to know my back ground. At the end of the third session, she told me, “my diagnosis is PTSD, Dysthymia, and General Anxiety.” My reaction inwardly was, “crap I am a mess.:
My PTSD is actually Complex PTSD, Complex PTSD is repeated exposure to trauma or traumas over a period of time including childhood. It is something I was not concerned about dealing with because my focus has been on serving Jesus and letting the rest go thinking when I get to heaven, there won’t be any problem. But is it telling that I do not have any pictures of myself before the age of 20.
However, my relationship with Jesus has brought healing and there have been aspects of Jesus’s earthly life that helped me to cope with trauma while I prayed to Jesus. So in May, I felt led to write about that. I asked my therapist if she would write a paragraph that I could include in my book’s forward-hopefully published in September just waiting for my pastor to finished reading the draft to write something for the forward. This is what my therapist wrote.
“Matt stepped into my office in January of 2022. He seemed sincere, honest, funny and well-spoken. However, after hearing of the heinous trauma he had suffered, I wondered if I was qualified to help him. I was transparent about this and suggested a few Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) therapists. Matt was adamant that he had prayed and Jesus led him to me, he wanted to continue working with me. He put his faith in Jesus and in turn put his faith in me. Looking back I am pleased that he did, because it has been rewarding watching his healing journey. Matt continues to grow mentally and in his faith. His book, Jesus Understands, is a testimony to both. After reading the book I felt honored and humbled, but mostly comforted. Maybe because of Matt or through Matt I found solace in knowing that He understands and comes to our aid. No matter the suffering we have endured, if we put our Faith in Him he will show us the way. Jeremiah 29:11 says “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”
My hope and prayer is that Jesus uses my book to reach thousands who struggle with PTSD or Complex PTSD.
Thank you for reading. God Bless.
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I didn’t know and would never expect you’d go through depression brother!!! My heart goes out to you. Praying many would be blessed by the book you’re going to publish!
Thank you little sister. How are you?
also trying to “catch up with life” but learning to take it easy and rest…. haha.
Thank you for asking!
Rest is good. Naps are good 😊
Thank you for sharing your story, and I pray that God uses your book to bless and encourage many people. I would like a copy myself when it is ready!
Thank you Andy!!! I will update when it is ready.
That was so nice of your Therapist and very heartfelt.
She is awesome
Beautiful words by your therapist. Praise God for his work in and through you. May your book reach many brother Matt.
Thank you 🙏 Manu. How are you?
I am doing well. Spring is starting here and I am enjoying the sunshine.
It will be fall here in maybe four weeks
“My hope and prayer is that Jesus uses my book to reach thousands who struggle with PTSD or Complex PTSD.”
Amen and amen!
Thank you 🙏
I am so glad that you get the help that you needed and you find comfort in the Lord. Bless you.
Cool intro from the therapist! Wow! God bless. I’ll buy the book!
Thank you 🙏
My therapist has been a huge blessing
God bless you. What you share with others is truly a blessing ❤️
Thank you little sister. How are you?
You’re welcome! I am doing good. ❤️
A very comforting post, dad. I’m proud of you for sharing your experience so that others may find that healing as well. ❤🙂
Thank you sweet daughter. Love and hugs from Nebraska ❤️❤️❤️
Love and hugs back at ya from your daughter from British Columbia. ❤❤❤
Looking forward to the book.
Thank you
You are not alone. I found knowing it was CPTSD encouraging; I wasn’t crazy. There was a reason I did some of the things I did, and I could change. Jesus promises a new heart, and I took Him at His word. Keep fighting for you.
Thank you. I am glad you have gotten help too
So incredibly relatable…I too started counseling in January this year…I’m now familiar with words like complex trauma and EMDR…it’s been incredibly hard walking through memories and putting emotions with them but so many things make sense as to why I made the teenage choices I made.
Thanks for sharing Matt, it makes reality for trauma victims not feel so lonely. And thank God for Jesus as we heal!!❤️
I am proud of you little sister for being on the healing journey and dealing with pat trauma. I know it is not easy but is rewarding
❤️🙏