I have found music to be a wonderful source of encouragement over the years. Worship songs are my favorite ones to listen to. There have been times over the years that a song has been in my spirit which let me know something was about to happen such as the time I had the song Life Goes On the morning my father passed away. I woke up with that song in my spirit and knew why.
This past week it happened again a few times. However, is was a different experience. It is something that has been happening the past few years as chronic illness has gotten worse and after I finally admitted to having depression as a result of chronic illness.
Friday brought with it a Fibro flare. This time it was extreme fatigue. I woke up at 7:30 but had zero energy. I couldn’t even go make breakfast. I drank some coffee, but still could snap out of it. I went back to sleep. As I went back to sleep, the song Oceans by Hillsong was in my spirit. The song stayed with me all morning when I would try to wake up but couldn’t. I finally got up at 1pm still tired., but the song was in my spirit even as I watched movies.
Wednesday it was a different song as depression was a struggle. Summer seemed hopeful at the beginning, but two of my classes were canceled. That is something I never experienced before. It was getting me down, but the song Look Up Child by Lauren Daigle was in my spirit so strongly. It seemed as if Jesus was letting me know not to give in to depression.
These kind of experiences remind me of a passage from the bible in Zephaniah 3:
“The Lord your God is with you,
the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you;
in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
but will rejoice over you with singing.”
Jesus rejoices over us with singing. The context of the passage is about how God will end the oppression his people were under. Living with chronic illness can at times feel like living under an oppressive master. Depression can also feel oppressive. Jesus loves us and sings over us. He came to bring us life, to breathe life into our souls and spirits.
I usually share music videos on Mondays for my Music Mondays series, but today I want to share the videos of the two songs the Lord has brought to my spirit in down times this week. My hope is they bless someone else who is struggling.
If you ever experience having a song in your spirit that is about Jesus, respond to it. Even the faintest prayer will get his attention. We are never alone. Jesus is always with us.
Thank you for reading. God Bless.