This week was rough with a flare up of my Fibromyalgia. Tuesday, Wednesday and yesterday were particularly rough days with pain and fatigue. But there were blessings especially Thursday evening.
Living with chronic illness presents me with a choice. I can choose to focus on the chronic illnesses I have or I can focus on Jesus. By focusing on Jesus, it holds off the darkness of depression that can accompany chronic illness. I love the passage in Hebrews 12 that says:
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart”.
The last part- so that you will not grow weary and lose heart- means so much to me. If we lose heart, we can lose so much more. The pain that accompanies Fibromyalgia varies from day to day but it is ALWAYS there. That would make it easy to lose heart, but Jesus is also ALWAYS there for us.
By pushing through the flare up and not letting it keep me down, I experienced wonderful blessings yesterday evening. I went to the school where my morning Family Literacy class meets for open house. I was able to meet new prospective students and see current and former students. Just seeing them gave me a huge boost. Seeing my colleagues at the school was encouraging too. 🙂
This a photo of me in my classroom in early April. 😉
Wednesday evening it was seeing my students in my evening class. I love the energy of a classroom with students who want to learn English.
But the greatest blessing was Tuesday evening. During some time with the Lord, I felt his presence so deeply. As I prayed, it was one of those moments that he showed me many things. It reminded me of the passage in John 15:
“I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.”
Jesus lets us know his business. He show us things. What a blessing to have Jesus call us friend and let us know things.
The choice is ours as to what we focus on. My desire is to focus on Jesus even in the midst of a flare up.
Thank you for reading. God Bless.